Happy and Healthy
Oh to be!!
But I lie in this bed
Only to see
Another day pass by
Dreary & dim
I'm starting to wonder what color is
Or if my life will ever again
Be full to the brim.
What do I do to deal with this pain?
I don't want to get addicted
And go insane!
Plus I'm a faith person
Who this is not supposed to happen to
What kind of sin did I surely do?
I'm trusting in my Healer
Or at least I think I am
I'm renewing my mind
Then all of a sudden, Bam!
Another intense pain
Once again all alone
The world seems to keep spinning
Not noticing I'm all but gone
So the thought occurs
Am I even needed?
Will this ever end?
I'm obviously not missed
Oh to be hugged & kissed.
A year goes by and another
Now they chalk you up as crazy.
But it's real and real hard
I know I'm not this lazy!
So I cry out to God once more
From the deepest part of my core
This time I can tell
I'm getting out of this cell!
Faith rose up from within
Health began to begin
Baby steps would follow
My hope no longer hollow
And finally I lay
...#happyanyway

If you battle with health issues, you will so get this poem. I laid in bed sick for the vast majority of a year or so with shingles, mono, and trigeminal neuralgia which was very painful and struggled with health issues for another year after that. So bottom line, while I felt the way I expressed through this poem I realized that my way to victory came through trusting God WHILE I was still in bed, not WHEN I was all better. He never left me or forsook me. He turned my situation around for good in the greatest way and I am stronger for sure now than ever. The devil was defeated. I won. He is our Healer and you don't have to be perfect to experience and walk in your healing. You can have very candid convo with God like I did while trusting Him ultimately not understanding all the "why's". After all, isn't that faith? Psalm 40:4 "Happy are those who trust in The Lord." So, I double dog dare you to go through this week happy anyway no matter how you feel trusting in your Healer...and yes, you can!

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