This morning was no exception at a glance to my typical Monday morning as of late. Alarm goes off at 4:20, begin work out by 5am, home by 6am, Quiet time until waking everyone at 6:30 to begin another glorious week😜
But today's routine which I only started a little over a month ago was especially hard. Why? I don't know, star alignment maybe. Who knows? From the outside looking in, it's all good and I did it but ooooohhhhh, if you could have seen what was going on on the inside. Decided to let you in this morning and take a look because we all go through this sort of struggle with something, no doubt!
It started with REALLLY not wanting to get out of bed. Then came excuses as to why NOT to work out....Snooze was hit a time or 2 as you can see below. Mind you, my ride was to show up at 4:45😳 Yikes!
Finally I mustered up enough gumption to roll out of bed still grappling with, "Am I going this morning? What am I doing? Why am I doing this? It isn't really making that much difference. This is just not necessary"...and on and on. A very warped tape recorder played through my mind for the next while. My knee was a little stiff so I imagined txting my friend who was to pick me up in minutes by this time to say, "I think I tweaked my knee and won't be going this morning." Nah, with the very next step, it wasn't hurting so then it would be a lie. Can't do that. Ugh! Why did my dang knee stop hurting. That was my way out. But out of what? Out of getting healthy?! But ya see, I wasn't really convinced of that. My mind then wondered to this place of self pity thinking, "But when have I gotten 8 hours of sleep? I have got to get sleep! Is this even healthy for me to be working out this hard?! With a former NFL player and these 4 other hotties?! What am I doing?! This is just too early & is this even healthy?" So doubt began to come in and flood my mind challenging the legitimacy of the whole plan that just a month ago I was SURE God led me to do.
Isn't that the exact same thing the devil did in the garden of Eden and again when he tempted Christ in his time of prayer? Can you think of what area this is happening in your life right now? He always tries to mislead us by getting us to doubt what before we believed in wholeheartedly. Just sheer grit I guess propelled me to the site of sweaty towels & water bottles and a few friends much more eager seemingly to be there than I. "Get a lap girls! Then let's do jumping squats"....then came ab work on the mat, after that -- sprints. Resistance bands, weights, & planks awaited all the while this storm was still raging inside me. "Should I even be here or should I be home resting? You need rest." While Ofcourse rest is needed, so is exercise and the truth of the matter is -- If I don't do this, I won't do anything and just keep gaining weight and be lucky to make it through my 60s alive.
After experiencing the mental anguish of this morning's work out I found myself sitting down for the morning's Bible reading. I saw a verse that is perhaps one of the most known verses ever but this time it took on brand new meaning.
"If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes." Mark 9:23
Woa! IF IF IF you can believe then all things are possible. If I can't believe that this early morning work out is right for me and truly best then it won't continue to be possible for me nor will the benefits of doing it be possible! So this belief system struggle this morning was almost a turning point for the worse for my health. Oh something I left out...after the work out, I got in the car with my buddy and began to admit to her this mindset. Her response was just what I needed! She looked at me sternly and said basically -- "Let me be your voice of reason. You are wrong!!!!"
As my kids say, "That was so savage!" Man, we sometimes need a friend to be "savage" with us. Do you have people around you that are better than you in certain areas? Further down the road in this or that way? If not, you will never attain all that lies within your potential! I have repositioned myself in the last season of my life to "play tennis with better players than me". It is stretching me to become more than I was a year ago. Ever so humbling experience but very healthy. Find you someone who spurs you on and go for your goals!
Don't let doubt keep you from all things being possible that you dream of! IF IF IF you will believe the right things then the right things will happen for you! Just determine to fight through those lies in your head and believe ANYWAY!!!!
Happy Monday y'all!💕